Sexual Assault Survivors Support

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Harasser/Creep alert: 7:54 am IST May 3, 2026
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Pwnage after effects

And good job with a menagerie that gets along.
My two girls don’t even get along

I would post pics of the girls but I don’t know if DU automatically removes exif data:

https://tinytoolshub.com/blog/photo-privacy-exif-guide/

Do you know GmG?

I was “pwned” 15 years ago, but from inside and outside the system. Mostly social engineering.

I am reducing my “attack surface” going forward. Since this is a safe community (well as safe as anything is as nothing is impregnable these days) it has been a good one for me to get my post pwned life going.

People talk about pwnage misleadingly online I find. It is a human cognitive error that is exploited by scammers imo.

It is not binary. Pwned or not.

Pwned by a 100 people vs a 1000 vs 10,000 vs 100,000 and so on.

I find the same cognitive glitch in many conversations-environmental, economic.

An example is that “everything on the internet is forever”. No actually it is really hard to find things after they have been deleted. It is not impossible. But it is hard. That is my guess anyway.

There is no way to foolproof or safety proof your life entirely but there are better ways.

I don’t even care that much about the democratic, incorruptible parts of the state. It is the creepier stuff out there that worries me.

I even sent my details to EarlG as I trust this community. But the net as a whole is dicey.
I worry more about Russian ransomware than influence. Worries of ransomware have pwned me way more than any other influence.

It is not so much that I have anything to hide as that I think hiding is more normal. One talks to friends or engages with communities like these. I wouldn’t go to a shady site and commune with people..lol

I thought of deleting this post, but DU has some teachers so I will leave it.
The worst part of being pwned is the difficulty of learning to trust humans again online and more rarely offline. Things are way easier to assess offline except when the net bleeds into the real world which is creepy. You struggle with being neither overly confiding/unfiltered nor overly paranoid/cagey. It can sound like some kind of issue when it is merely the after effect of pwnage.

It is harder on introverts and loners. I never really called myself an introvert before. It is fairly rare to admit to it .

But DU has helped to socialize me back to normal.

So yeah..I have a friction filled relationship with computers since then. Never really thought about them much before.

And with all the safety being thrown away ..

It is kinda hideous but I was listening to this obnoxious noise polluter on my street. There are some jerks here in India and it is outrageous. There is a subset here that tries to pass off harassment (as the internet bleeds into real life) as white or grey hatting. I blame our govt for having done nothing and with Musk and the Doge jerks this culture is likely to spread. East or West with minor superficial differences I find that in the end scrape off trivial surface differences and it is the similar bullying types.

I have become an autodidact in it by now..lol. It has improved my people sense. And downstream my communication skills hopefully. Those are a work in progress. Still have a residual tendency to ruminate openly .
But I should stop that because it is also a trait induced by social engineering and not normal..
It’s been wild.

I think with exasperation that it makes me sound like a bot or a bad actor rather than a normal person annoyed by what the digital world has turned into.

Anyway, sorry to ramble on and yes she is regal.
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The people were generally pretty nice. I have never had a problem with the subset of Maga voters I have met superficially.

I have met similar people here in India. In a way Maga are closer to a lot of people the world over re saying not pc things and so on. But sometimes it is not ill intentioned. I have never been uptight that way where no offense is intended.


But, if I have never viewed it condescendingly, I view it the same way I view specialized instrumentation. You need to be trained on it and the people Maga vote for are vile and would have no issue manipulating and using Maga the way I see the Darwin Awards candidates on my own street manipulated into idiotically flooding a street they should avoid. They have damaged my ear drums too often for me to now have any compunction left for them.

Conservatives have too much in group cohesion and they move en masse whereas with lefties it is like herding cats.

It can be more complicated than race, gender and class. Otoh it can be all about that. Figuring out which parts of this complicated hairball that is society are working ways most alarming overall and how to communicate that in a time sensitive way but while reaching the most people is the bind.

I think most people are okay with the stragglers in the group when they are far away. I am sick of the idiots on my street here in India. Maga are over there and making life hell for among other people a small subset of dem voters I tend to dislike and so I don’t care ( in those few instances - anyone who attacks Paul Ehrlich can suck up Maga imo ). The anti-Green left of centre Cato-Romney types who made life so hellish for me I had to uproot overnight and leave. They don’t really like environmentalists and will use any excuse to harass and smear us imo.
It was the right call and I am much happier today than had I somehow stuck around throwing my pride to the winds. I couldn’t have anyway. Work or social- an impossible task for a loner.

Maga never ideologically forced me out of spaces I would at least have liked a decent notice to vacate. That was all democrats of the type I avoid - technocratic bullies. Unpleasant people - they behave irl the way is common only online. But I don’t want to go and tell some sort of Maga sleuth . Lame.

I didn’t take it personally as these cliques and gossip types are cracked. They are closer to Maga in their herd like behaviors.

So I am more tolerant for Maga than of those idiots. Otoh my few friends and colleagues are also there and if Maga were harassing them that would be vile.

Life is complicated. My sense of identity is mostly based in environmental issues and the right has outright not given a shit forever and the left has a lot of that too and I was used to pretending to take it as casually as one should at normal levels. It was different to now deeply reinvent oneself as this insipid douchebag who thinks all of earth should be a giant theme park/toilet/garbage bin/parking lot to fit in ..heh. A type of camouflage that gets so ingrained it feels like a shock if people actually genuinely give a shit about earth.
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Most people I met who are probably Maga adjacent were quite nice at a superficial level.
I had real issues in Si Valley though.

Took me a while to return to normal and now I am more actively rewiring what used to be autopilot thought about the world. What used to be intuitive about policies got corrupted by confusing experiences as people are always pretty wacky.

I am from a Podunk town in the global south so I get that without malice people can be exasperating. Though my patience is pretty strained as far as the local Darwin Awards candidates go as it is deliberate provocation not mere awkwardness. That’s where it is getting dangerous. Jan 6 and the stuff I am seeing is not normal annoying behavior.

It is easier to destroy it when you understand it and can distinguish awkwardness from malice with a pretense of “I didn’t understand what I was doing!”. That Rick Rude’s Calves guy understood Vance. Sesame Street’s “one of these things is not like the other”.

Strange times these..

I deleted a post since I am experimenting with my writing and communication style .