I need some help with a problem. As some of you know, my family was/is terrible abusive to me. Physical, emotional, and [View all]

sexual abuse were the norm in my family. I was punched, had broken hands, black eyes. My father aimed a hunting rifle at my head and

told me that he was going to blow my brains out because my siblings wouldn't be quite and told him to leave it be. I was a pimple faced

_hore constantly by my brother as he straddled me punching the shit out of me as my mother closed the windows so the neighbors

wouldn't hear, that when I got punched in the breasts. My parents sat in the dining room and watched. I had my baby teeth knocked out

by my mother and kicked across the kitchen floor at my grandmother's home. I stayed at my grandmother's every Saturday as she lived

across the street of the church and while giving me a bath, she would wash in a place that she shouldn't. I thought it was normal-that is

how they do it in the old county. I never said anything until 45 years later. My mother said "And" I pay my way through college and for

my wedding through scholarships and loans. I was smart. I ranked 30th out of a class of 700, I saw doctors for infections, was seen

by teachers with black eyes and bruises. Never told I was loved. or pretty or smart or talented. I was taught to obey my parents. When I

found out I was infertile my mother said God punished me. I adopted a baby-they called him a _astard. There were are no pictures of

me, my husband or my child.in their home. I could go on about the personal abuse. When my husband found out he had

Malignant Cancer last summer , I was told that "Everyone dies, get over it. No cards, calls or fruit for Rich. This was after we

spent an entire month driving my sister From Westmoreland County to Pittsburgh. I could go on about the abuse, there was way

more. Instead of setting money away for my brother and sister who live at home, It was spend spent at the slot machines. My

mother and sister still claims she has uterine cancer, even though she had a hysterectomy. She was Fired in July as a nurses aid and

I am expected to pay for house bills as my sister and mother refuse to take aid from the government. ==SSI Medical, Snap. as it is

my responsibilitty as the Bible says to care for your siblings. Rich called this evening and said he would help with the SS portal. My

mother said no, Debbie will care of them. I am sick. I just finished crying. My husband is here, so not to worry But the pain that those

remaining three gave me is far more then I state here. Thank you for reading through this, I am sorry but I am confused, bitter and so

tired of it all. Sorry this is so long. Love you all.Deb.