Astrology, Spirituality & Alternative Healing

often it's because I don't want to say anything hurtful, so I'm trying to be diplomatic.

I didn't want to yell at her "you've been home for 25 years" because part of that is *my* sibling jealousy. Not that I normally feel it, but when I am so exhausted from being the breadwinner and the caretaker, I do.

And I am exhausted. School left me fried. And left me underemployed to be followed by unemployed. And I'm too exhausted to even think about looking for work. After 12 years of rejection, I no longer trust or believe there is a place for me in our current society. Wherever I've found work, I've been sabotaged by co-workers and dumped as soon as the going got tough.

I'm scared. She's scared. I admit it. She doesn't. That's the crux of our difference.

I had hoped we could get along enough that I could live with them temporarily, work nearby and contribute to their mortgage and taxes. No. Way. She is welcome to her beliefs. But she has no right to order me to give up mine, with threats.