Religion

i did believe in gawd as a child, but my parents did not raise us in a religion. Catholicism was the primary religion in the neighborhood where we grew up, with a fair amount of mormons. My sister and her first husband became catholic before they got married; i was 11 and for a minute thought i wanted to be a nun (kind of hilarious in retrospect). I prayed nightly when I went to sleep until I was about 18, and that's when I date my affirmative loss of belief in gawd.

i don't believe in any gawd that gives a rat's ass about me personally. however I am still a spiritual person, and this has never changed. I will say that when Bekah died I experienced a spiritual crisis but after a lot of writing and dabbling (astrology, tarot, open circles, numerology, etc), i found that my core belief, my faith, in a lasting soul still endured within me.

When I was 15, a friend of mine was seeing some guy who had given her a book to read. And she said to me, "It says here that I don't HAVE a body, I AM a body," and I immediately said, "Bullshit, I HAVE a body."

I acknowledge that it behooves me to believe as I do. I am as confident as I can be that I will be with Bekah and so many other loved ones when I die. I don't need to go into it all, but it is a fact that after she died suddenly and unnaturally, she provided evidence of her presence to me and others in many ways. I have listed them and the title is The Bekah Church of Wonder Book of Unexplained Phenomena and Amazing Small World Stories.

I'm rambling on. Religion largely sucks, particularly fundamentalism of any sort. It's used for control of humans. the bible is a book it was written by men. they made their gawd in the image of themselves. I will give it this: they do ritual well.

Lastly, I am more christian than those fascists running around with their crosses and flags, because I live by the message: the golden rule. I care about people and I believe in Love as the spiritual force that moves me and is all that stands a chance of saving this human race.