Religion

I wanted to be part of the tribe, but I never could feel comfortable with it, never could make it feel authentic. For one thing, it just never made sense--and I'm sure you are familiar with all the ways it doesn't make sense, so I won't go into all that. And then there is the thing about the "Creator's" total incompetence. George Carlin covered a few of those, such as His inability to handle money despite His omnipotence; As for omnipotence I had to conclude He was either completely incompetent or evil do leave undone so many things that have led to such horrible injustices and agony of the masses.

But finally, it was the behavior and obviously malicious hearts of those who profess to be "Christian" that finally convinced me I didn't want to be part of that tribe anyway, so I could embrace my doubts and common sense about the absence of a "Creator".

Though I have no belief in any "God," I often suspect there is an intelligence comprised of a collective consciousness that includes all things. This suspicion may be no more than an artifact from being raised in a culture where "God" is woven into the fabric of our every experience. At any rate, I am now free to have an open and curious mind, an open heart, and a lack of arrogance requiring a defense of my own beliefs and my own concepts of "God." A much happier place than I was in when I was so desperate to believe in a "God" for which I could see no convincing evidence.