A question if you want to answer. What caused you to deconstruct from your religion. [View all]

My reasons several yet not all . One reason over the years reading the books that were kept from the Bible by the early church.

If Jesus was real then he was teaching us that the divinity is within us not an organized religion.

And in my thoughts if you were to bring Christ into a modern church service at any moment through the last two thousand years.

I’m thinking Jesus would ask what is this place you call church you really missed my message you all must lead not follow.
Another reason is growing up among the evangelical community.
And today we’ve seen branches of this sect exchange the cross for power.
And in this observation of mine and i could be wrong and if offended tell me to piss off Dunc in this old man dyslexic bad punctuation ramble.
In that we as a country and our predominant religion from youth we were taught to worship a single God do not ask questions total obedience.
A lot of these evangelicals are just fine with being ruled by a king here in this country because they were groomed to think this way by their religion.

I often ask myself today do i have faith and if i do is it rooted in spirituality or in science.

And there is a part of me that still strongly wants to believe in spirituality.
Yet I’ve never seen actual evidence of a higher power so my questioning or search for answers continues in my head.