Why are you back to work while you are still having so many factors? You need the disability.maybe not for ever,but now.
This is how it is now and try to get the paperwork in ASAP
Just my opinion which counts for beans. So before I give it I will just say peace to you
The Va is a refuge you may need right now but don't make it permanent if you can help it
I knew too many who stayed in the VA hospitals because they thought this best. But once a new worker or something came in and helped them get out on disability they realized they had stayed there too long. Some needed to go back it is all individual no formula or plan.Just don't give up or give in to demons.
I mean stay at the VA if you need it now but think about the future and keep on it as a goal if you think you can right now. Everyone is different a few years for some 5+Life for others. The jumpy anxiety is common but I have seen over time people conquer it ( or time dissipate it) but it can still lurk with a trigger at any time. A new part of life is just beginning ,the next phase.maybe not how you dreamed but what it is. Be disappointed but never give up.dream of possibilities like the wood shop.
See a lawyer if you can re:disability or soc worker for help with paperwork if you think you can function well enough with out full time hospitalization imo
Wife isn't in the same place as you but you can ask one more time for her support but realize somethingare not in your control
I know Tues is Veteran's Day ,you will be in my thoughts Victor along with many others alive and survivors all. (Some old men now long journey)