Looks like I may have a reason not to smile anymore. [View all]

It seems that I have a letter at our old address from a lawyer.

I have no doubt that this is from one of the medical agencies that I owe money to.

I have no money to give them.

If they try to garnish my husband's measly income, we are done...we will be out on the street just as winter is arriving in Minnesota.

There is no one to go to. After years of trying, there is no help to be found.

I was on medical assistance, but my husband fumbled the ball and did not renew me, so I was removed. That was over two years ago.

They don't seem interested in allowing me back.

They won't give us SNAP.

They won't return calls about programs, or I discover that the programs that people keep pointing me to don't help someone in my position. I then keep finding out that there are no programs for someone in my position.

I guess time is growing shorter than I thought.

Oh, I never did hear from those people who were asking for volunteers for a Halloween function. That is not surprising. Things like that did surprise me nine years ago. Not any more. I had one person suggest that I contact them again. I may do so, but now that this has come up, I don't know anymore.

I do know I cannot continue like this. It is always something and that something always wants the one thing I have never had, do not have and will never have.

I am sorry, honey. I tried to warn you.