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FirstLight

(15,516 posts)
Wed Jul 16, 2025, 11:55 AM Wednesday

Need some emotional backup... I think I just cut my youngest son loose for good... (long, sorry) [View all]

So, those of you who know me here have seen the drama/trauma i have dealt with this kid since middle school. Since he's been an "adult" I have bailed him out and bought at least 2 cars, paid for a lawyer ...and most recently, brought him and his GF (and her baby, 2yoF) back out here from Kansas.
Christmas was ok, but they stayed with me for about 2 months while we looked for apartments etc. It was not fun. He's got a lot of our family anger issues, stuff I am sorry that I passed on from my dad... But he needs some serious therapy, probably has BPD and is definitely a big narcissist, so he's never wrong and will never need therapy in his mind.
So I basically drained what was left of my savings to help them get a car and into an apartment. She got a job and he failed to step up. Everytime they hit me up for gas money I reminded them I was now in dire straits too and couldn't help. Hearing from them got more sparse...he flaked on helping me with the house and yard (big promises made when $$ was given) Well, the inevitable finally happened and they got evicted the beginning of July.

I made sure during week they had to scramble before eviction - That I loved them but could NOT welcome them back into my home. That all I can do is offer support.
Well, then they both went radio silence.

It's been three weeks and nothing, I'd been trying to give them space to work it out and not make things worse by asking too many questions. *Even my one outreach to see how they were was ignored.

So I'm talking to my other kid (the one in NC) about some family health stuff and they say I should tell Devin because he definitely has symptoms...I said he's homeless, probably not seeing a Dr anytime soon.. but I tried to go ahead in that moment and text his number.
Message came back BLOCKED.
It was like a punch to the gut.

Really?.... REALLY!?!
So if I can't give you something, I am of no use to you?
wow.

So I sat with it through the evening and the next morning, I decided to go ahead and cut the cords.
I sent him a last message on the social platform we usually talk on (If his phone number is cut because he didn't pay it, that's our wifi backup to contact eachother...) just "I see you blocked me, sorry you made that choice."

and then I deleted (not blocked) his contact info. They still have my number, if they are in Reno and they are truly desperate, they know where I live. And I didn't say NOT to contact me in any way!)

So about 24 hours later, I get a text from the GF asking what's going on? she sent me screenshots of my last message to Devin, (where he replied "I'm a grown ass adult and I'm busy...but you blocked me though." )
I simply said that I tried to message and it came back blocked, so I was done. Felt that they only needed me when they could GET something.

no anger, no rant, just done.

That was the last I heard from either of them three days ago. He never said anything directly, just had her do it.

My whole lesson that meant something to ME was that I am done giving my EVERYTHING to people who just see it as a transactional relationship.
Even family.

The people in my life I have given the most to, have been the ones to turn their back on me and hurt me the most.
No More.

I am living my life for MY benefit. I gotta rebuild something to retire on and I'm not gonna get there giving everything to others in order to win love and approval.

So I just needed to rant and tell you all my process and get some hugs and backup for choosing to NOT allow abusive and draining people in my life.

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stay strong WhiteTara Wednesday #1
You can only do so much Raven123 Wednesday #2
IMO whether one is religious or not, we must selfishly love ourselves before we can love anyone else. By in2herbs Wednesday #3
Very wise words, in2herbs. So many people need to hear them. Thank you for posting. wordstroken Wednesday #7
And in the words of the immortal RuPaul..... ShazzieB Wednesday #48
FirstLight what you're going through, is one dlilafae Wednesday #4
Thank you for putting it so succinctly, dlilafae. Most people who are ... wordstroken Wednesday #11
I agree, it is time to take care of you, FirstLight. sheshe2 Wednesday #5
We love you, FirstLight, and we support you all the way. wordstroken Wednesday #6
Hugs, FirstLight Bayard Wednesday #8
My middle kid did same after my husband died cpamomfromtexas Wednesday #9
Keep firm adam_vermont Wednesday #10
A parent can only do so much roscoeroscoe Wednesday #12
Question: single mom carrying the load. .our son? Am I guessing niyad Wednesday #51
You have gone extra miles. (Plus bonus phone fact.) TommyT139 Wednesday #13
It's not your fault cynical_idealist Wednesday #14
Right here with you.. mountain grammy Wednesday #15
same mg- et tu Wednesday #19
He needs to grow up IbogaProject Wednesday #16
My solution to any problem was to go to work the next day wolfie001 Wednesday #44
Hang in there !!!!! Karadeniz Wednesday #17
There comes a time homegirl Wednesday #18
I know its tough sdfernando Wednesday #20
This is what really stuck out to me, to which I say, Bravo! Sogo Wednesday #21
I amdeeply sorry you are going through this irisblue Wednesday #22
Sometimes you have to cut people loose so they can save themselves Warpy Wednesday #23
It's heartbreaking beyond measure when an adult child has issues beyond your control dlk Wednesday #24
I have (or had) a brother to whom I have not spoken in more than two decades. NNadir Wednesday #25
I'm the same way with a sister who cut us off Ritabert Wednesday #29
I've cut off all my siblings because they're all hardcore tRUMPers wolfie001 Wednesday #45
I agree but I'm too old to deal with Trumpers. Ritabert Thursday #57
Enjoy these years! I retired in early Dec. 2023 and have never felt better! wolfie001 Thursday #59
Is your son addicted to anything, Naranon Family really saved our lives. lark Wednesday #26
Thanks for all the support DU Family! Many wise words and hugs ..thank you FirstLight Wednesday #27
Unfortunately, I can totally relate. My soon-to-be 58 year old son has BPD. judesedit Wednesday #28
yes, the two are so different! FirstLight Wednesday #30
That's all you can do. It is heartbreaking, but there is lots of goodness in this world. judesedit Wednesday #42
I get it. Ms. Toad Wednesday #31
"ingratitude, thou marble-hearted fiend" Paul-EM Wednesday #32
You did all you could Mama Bird BaronChocula Wednesday #33
My heart is with you Freddie Wednesday #34
It sounds like he needs to hit bottom and take responsibility MadameButterfly Wednesday #35
It sounds like you are taking steps to help yourself, and Hassler Wednesday #36
My kids cut me off years ago, for the same thing. Linda ladeewolf Wednesday #37
I pray that things get better for you and your family mdmc Wednesday #38
Amazing stories of family disfunction Playingmantis Wednesday #39
It is hard when that happens and I'm very sorry for it. PatrickforB Wednesday #40
You go to therapy csusan Wednesday #41
that poor child Skittles Wednesday #43
It's hard to finally admit the relationship is too toxic to continue. Trueblue Texan Wednesday #46
u come first. AllaN01Bear Wednesday #47
Oh, dear friend. Holding you in love and light, wishing you all the blessings niyad Wednesday #49
Best thing those kids BonnieJW Wednesday #50
Sending hugs and support, FirstLight. HeartsCanHope Wednesday #52
Oh FirstLight, I know your heart is aching. summer_in_TX Wednesday #53
I am so sorry for what you are going through Jarqui Thursday #54
Here are some hugs for you. OldBaldy1701E Thursday #55
I am forever thankful I have close family, immediate and relations. Fla Dem Thursday #56
It's good to vent. I'm sure you're hurt. live love laugh Thursday #58
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