Court case continued, but I can give the DA my videos now... [View all]

I haven't watched them since it happened. It was rough seeing myself in that space. I took 2 videos the night of the strangulation...one immediately after, and one about an hour later...

In the first, I was still shociked and pissed. But I was able to document her threats of "Just try and sleep tonight" and "If you GO anywhere, I'll kill the cats and trash the house" ...also, that she took the keys so I couldn't leave.

The second video is really gut wrenching. I am really upset by now and had d9one so9me online research and seen that strangulation is a REALLY bad thing...I had gone on Redditt and been told by folks there I cold DIE if I didn't make sure she didn't damage my veins and other anatomy... I was terrified and crying, the swelling was showing on my neck and I was able to say where other parts were hrting from her pushing me down and landing on top of me. I didn't know how to get help cuz she had the keys and I was trapped... I didn't want to call the cops on her because SHE had just had surgery 10 days before! (didn't know at the time she was snorting her oxys and that's why she had all that rage energy)...

I'm so grateful for the therapy I've gotten since, and I have RELEASED so much consciously...but I still feel stuck. Maybe it's just that things got pushed back and my "justice" is still pending. I want her to PAY

The next court date is another PRE-Preliminary hearing...so I may not be called to testify again till June.
But the good news is the evidence is getting to the DA and hopefuly it helps nail her ass to the wall.

I'm gonna go cry and lay down now. Feeling a little raw and sad... I don't like feeling sorry for myself. I want to brush it off and get up and keep going. It's hard when you *HAVE* to give the emotions a place to go, I feel so weak...