Chronic Health Conditions Discussion and Support

ya know, i didnt notice the constipation for quite a while. it’s hard to notice when something doesnt happen. i only sorta noticed was i wasnt having my usual miserable squishy poops.
it’s amazing how this affects your brain. i know just what u mean. zombie. i figured i was just depressed or lazy, both of which i tend to b.

i nearly went broke, cuz my income comes from a 2flat that i started a big remodel on in early 2020. btn my gut-brain meltdown and the plague, i had no income for almost 2 yrs, while dumping a ton of money into it.
i had an adorable little single family that 2 buddies and i had restored. was getting good rent, too. but i had to sell it. i spent almost all my savings and had $20k in credit card debt.
i did pay off the mortgage, replenish my savings, and was able to raise rents cuz of the improvements i made. so it’s almost neutral. but i sure wish i had that 3rd check still. then again, i dont have the headache. and a couple of adorable kids bought it.

i rly thought i was an old lady now, and done w who i was. at least that isnt true. i know it can come back, but this time i wont b ignored. i saw a new gi once, days b4 it blew up, and he told me exactly what it was, and told me he wanted to do my follow ups.
i’m looking at suing as much to see a doc who will tell the whole truth as anything. even if docs know the last doc was an asshole, they arent gonna volunteer any info.
i know there is other damage. le sigh.
i guess life’s a bitch and then u die.

i small upside. i reconnected w my estranged child. so shocked that she cared. she is hoping to come take care of my after my take down. an ill wind and all that.