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from this thread- https://www.democraticunderground.com/11477331

so, saw the surgeon on thurs.
the 1st thing he said floored me- you can keep the ostomy if u dont want another surgery.
they told me he had a dry sense of humor. i gotta wonder if that was a joke. who would choose this?
anyway.
i need to get a test b4 they can do the reversal, but soon. he stressed that they want me truly recovered, cuz this isnt an emergency. it’s elective now, different rules.
i was cleared to eat veggies again. phew. i didnt think it was possible to get sick of chocolate, but i kinda am. i had a dietician tell me ‘butter and sugar r your friends’. i’ve eaten a ton of ice cream, and i’m getting tired of that, too.
when i got my staples out, i was down to 115#. pretty sure i’ve put a few back on, but they didnt weigh me.
i’ve been working hard on my rehab, and doing well. lots of yoga, and (almost) daily piano practice.
u know that saying- u dont know what you’ve got til it’s gone? that works for bad things, too. i had so much anxiety. i mean, i was basically hangry for the last 5 years. plus all this doctor nonsense. my brain needed some rehab.
i stumbled upon a dog management scheme that lessened that stress, too.
amazing how much more productive 1 is when not swimming in adrenaline.
i’m feeling nearly human, and rly have my appetite back. can eat like i used to. thinking after the next surgery, i’ll enjoy having a belly again. maybe i need a tat over my scar.
this whole thing has been surreal.
yesterday was inspiring. 1 goal in my rehab is to get my ass out to wave a sign soon.