To figure out who I am during an existential crisis and I came to the conclusion over and over that there is no getting away with it that I am a bit of an ass
Not in any malignant or ideally inconsiderate way, but I have lots of strong opinions, stubborn rules and
But unless you are a billionaire or one of the 50 or so people I bash in these posts for being public figures I feel broke reality for many people and most outrageously for jfz9580m in whose advancement and well-being I take an inordinate amount of interest.
But the point is we are all passionate people in this community and I would never hurt anyones feelings deliberately. I respect and appreciate each one of yoi despite our differences as fellow human animals navigating this foul hellscape. And broadly most humans as long as crowded hellscapes are shunted away from my own solitary existence.
Ironically I have to be more open and social (hopefully temporarily) to retreat to my lair and live out my life quietly.
I truly used to try to keep my drivel to myself, but then it all became really complicated and now I get it. I got shoved out of some places and well I am still indignant about some of it. But one reason I hate move fast and break shit is the break shit part. You can move fast as long as you dont break shit or steal from me except in a way I would consider Jean Val Jean adjacent as a one-off. But not like a creepy libertarian pirate herded mob..
But my point is you are always my guest to take action with expertise or more knowledge to keep jfz9580m from being a nuisance as I would hate to do that.
That aside I figure if one is a bit of an ass one might as well use it efficiently to shove some creeps around a bit. I take full responsibility for my asinine ways..
I try my best with the strange relationship I have with information by now, guessing a bunch and using the past to figure out how to thwart those creeps..
It is unbeautiful in the extreme. But this media environment and its fraudulent lies and deceptions are goading me to pushback till I can extricate myself from crap tech and all the wrong humans and go on my way with my secure from junk.
A scientific object lesson on the limits to growth in the microcosm I inhabit with adequate real security rather than a hyper secure, creepy, unnatural cult that breaks the web of life, real ecosystems and organic human social webs with clunky tech, is my goal.
But as I grope throw the dark, not being dumbass ai, I always need correction and feedback from my friends and colleagues and neighbors!