General Discussion

I'm used to using the cards, and then paying off the balance the next month. I'm looking at paying one of them off in 3-4 months now, and that scares me. It's so beyond what I'm used to doing... just to live. These purchases aren't for "luxury" and "would be nice to have" things... I'm using them at the grocery store and gas station. I even caught myself borrowing from Peter to pay Paul. I have a hard time going to sleep at night because my anxiety level is so high, and none of the meds I have seem to help cut it to a manageable level. I honestly don't know what we're going to do. At our ages and infirmities, a job is out of the question... and it feels like just "living" is becoming out of the question. Scary doesn't come near to what I'm feeling inside.